Art Openings are WEIRD
I had an art opening yesterday. It was quite a lot of preparation, but seemed to go off without a hitch. I felt truly supported by my friends, they are ace.
But I must say, that it is VERY difficult to accept compliments. It makes me squirm like a trout. It's so hard to just stand there and say, 'thank you". I just want to run away, occasionally turning back and pointing, and yelling "liar...liar, pants on fire!"
I hope I am not singularly nuerotic about this...but It's SO difficult. It scares me even. My brain always cuts in with "their just saying that to get something out of you".
I ALWAYS feel like a cornered animal. The only comments I really take to heart seem to be the extra harsh criticisms. For some reason, these are the rare meats that I hanker for. I wish I made sense. Sorry.
posted by Kelly! @ 3:03 PM
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As an artistic performer (I'm a classical musician) I really understand your feelings here. It is so hard to accept praise and I often find when someone praises a performance I think they are lying for some reason. It is hard but you must learn to accept it a little at least - after all if you reject their positive criticism of your work you are effectively saying that you don't hold their ability to respond to art very highly and you think their knowledge is worthless. Now you don't think that of these people right? So why should you ignore them this time?? We are brought up to dwell on what is not right and in a culture of criticism as a means of 'progress'....break out and be joyous that people can relate to your expression...
Sweet! That is a really excellent way of looking at the situation. Thank you for such an insight. I will carry this feeling in my head from now on. I feel like some part of my psyche has been carefully openned, or unlocked. I really appriciate that. Thank you.
Glad to be of use kk...I hope I can see some of your stuff for real one day.
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