Life in the Vast lane

So it's been a year since my last post. I have had 4 deaths in my family this year. It's interesting how death and grief have really got me in touch with my bull-poop. I am learning so much about myself/humanity. I'm learning more about compassion every day. Most of all I am learning about acceptance/fear/control. This crazy thread that effects everyone (I think). I am leaning into fear in a way that I would have never thought possible, but my life has offered me this. It's funny when I was looking into a coffin at the glorious lovely face of a darling family member, it was like looking in a mirror. Some things became clear. At some point this will be me. It will end.

I realized that I had been cutting myself off from some experiences, this only caused me other experiences...possibly more painful. Also, it showed me the importance of the connection in my life. This life. This frail precious jewel. We are so lucky to have this moment with each other my friends.

I feel fortunate to know you. Thank you for enriching my life.

I hope to drink you all in as much as possible. You are lovely.